Maybe its time for me to travel
To somewhere I don’t have to know
Who I am
And start to know myself again
In Your sight
Maybe I should throw away something
My laptop
As it leads me to many sins
Though it also allow me to do some meaningful things
Like this one
Maybe I should not be in Your kingdom
I don’t deserve it
Even now when You already saved me
I constantly put myself in the same sins
Over and over again
Maybe it’s better that I was not born
So that I don’t have to commit all this wrong
The sins the strangle me
Keep pulling me behind
Though deep in my heart I really wish to move forward
Maybe I should know lesser
But I can’t just erase my memory
And I know I wouldn’t want to
However hard this could be
I wish to move on
Maybe, just maybe
I pray that you would grant me more strength
Better will power
To rely on more
To resist these temptations
But this is not maybe
As You had promised to keep me
Though now I am falling
You would bring me up again one day
And I shall grow stronger in You
Lord, forgive me
Help me
Keep me
Lead me
From evil
In Jesus’ name I pray
Amen.
